Friday, October 19, 2012
 Fyi, don't think too much, read on, don't judge and jump to conclusion. Hi earthlings. I do not know why I came to post again. Yesterday studied till 10 and I came back to use comp. I went in audi, yea, Ronn came in too. Just to send kiss. He then went to arena, which, he left me there. Though I waited for him, he didn't came back nor give me a text. I feel, upset. Was lying on bed, couldn't close my eyes. Until what time I doze off, I've no idea. Woke up at around 11plus today. Of course, everyone would do the same. First thing get up after washing up, check facebook and twitter. I ate while re-watching SHINee Hello Baby. Compare to B1A4's Hello Baby, SHINee's Hello Baby are always the most hilarious. HAHA Jonghyun never fails to make my heart melts. Keke. After eaten, of course, back to study time. Like no life right. No choice, Monday is English paper le. That fear in me x.x . I went to Jerrold's timeline. Fyi, he's my ex, a friend now. Hey, don't ask me why I went there, I've no idea too. I scroll to the very bottom, and saw what I posted on his wall last time. Yea, memories of us just flashes back and my tears literally flows out. How long was that, 2 years ago. I found this photo of his. That photo was taken when I was overseas. What made that meaningful, was that necklace he was wearing. That was our 2nd month's anniversary present from him. We each had one, but sadly, mine was thrown away. Well, I regretted for throwing it away. At least, I still have the ring of ours, that he gave me too. 0307'10, was our date. Thinking back, what would happen if I didn't broke off with him that day. Would we still be together? Whatever it is, it's already the past, and he has a girlfriend now. Was kind of jealous seeing his girlfriend posting all those sweet stuffs on his timeline. Haha. Because he was once mine too. Yes, WAS. I know he wouldn't see this but, all I wanna say is, last long. Longer than us, longer than 6 months. Just don't treat her like how you treated me. Cherish her, because to find a good girl in more than a million people, it's a blessing. Though it didn't work out for us, which we actually could, make her the only girl. Both of you are bless to have each other. I'm happy that you're happy. If there's anything, I'll be here for you. Not just for him, for everyone who needs me (: . Until 530, watch channel 8. 630, bath, come out continue re-watch SHINee Hello Baby, wait for hair to dry. Went to audi awhile too. Ronn was online. He pm me, but I was cold to him. He disappear again without telling me. He message me say he didn't know I was waiting for his text. Just two text from him, and that's all. He didn't bother to talk to me anymore. I do not know why. I just feel, so upset, so, empty. I do not know how to explain how I'm feeling right now. It's just, you had a crush on someone, and you were expecting him/her to text you, but you waited and waited, you see him/her update status/tweet, yet none of his/her message came. That heart of yours just sank, deeply, that kind of feel. And you just wish to have conversations and be like a couple for whole day long. Even though I wish, I hope, he doesn't know anything. Yes, I had a small crush on him. Yes, I feel terrible. I actually am afraid to lose him, though he's not mine. I hate it. I hate how it's going. I hate how I feel when it's not vice versa. Would you care to be mine? ): .. I want to be yours. I'm so confused. Are you seeing this? I doubt you are nor will .. I miss you so much, so badly. Please, talk to me, like everyday, every minute, every second. I'm sorry for everything. Some times, I just want to tell him straight that I had a crush on him. I do not have that much courage to do so. So I guess, it's just one sided love, keeping everything to myself. But I really wish he would know .. Sigh. Tomorrow is my brother's birthday! Which means, it's Donald's birthday too .. He made a promise he would bring me along with his family for dinner, but it all shattered away 2months plus ago .. Anyway, what I wish now is that stupid Ronn to talk to me .. I'll just get back to study for awhile more bah. If not later brother come back nag at me again. My post seems long though it's just one day apart from my last post. Lol. And yes, do miss me ok! I'll be back soon. I love you /: .. Nights earthlings! , RonnChanJiaJun(?) |
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