I've nothing to do so I came to post.

Saturday had tk at Geylang Bahru.

There is a place where dead body are being I don't know what at there.

Coffins etc.

The toilet is right at the side of the door where when you turn to your right, you'll see a dead body lying there.

It scares me and Constance.

When we go toilet we keep look the other direction.

We wanted to see, but yet we are scare. Lol.

The last tk for 7 month.

After tk went back home.

Home and I did a box of cranes for him before going to sleep.

Morning woke up at 8plus, almost couldn't get up.

Prepare everything, wait for mother and we went down to tkst.

Had half day at our own temple.

Until 3plus finish and took cab home.

Constance came my house as she wanted to bath.

Home I bathed, dry my hair and went to straighten.

She say she nothing to do, so she helped me to straighten.

Until 5plus then she go bath.

6 went down to mrt to meet him to pass him the box of cranes.

He accompany me to shop and save and he went to his friend house.

Met Constance and mother at shop and save to buy Heniken.

Bought and we went back to tkst.

We had a 7 month dinner there.

All of us, tk members drank.

Me, Constance and Hweeling drank Heniken only.

4 bottles, I don't feel any seh-ness.

Quite a number of people face turns red only mine like still white. o.o

It's so fun!

So much jokes around, all keep say want jio me drink. Tsk.

Drank finish and we all went home.

Home, bath and uploaded photos.

It's 20plus photos, go my facebook see, lazy upload here.

After uploading, watch tv awhile and went to sleep.

Morning woke up, watch show awhile, went back to sleep again.

Just woke up not long.

What are words when you actually don't keep them?

I kept my words, but did you?

Now know how to attitude me already.

You'll never show me attitude, but today you did it.

You ask for my forgiveness, I gave you, over and over again.

Why? Because I believe in you.

Believe you will change, for me.

Believe you will keep your words just like what you said.

Believe you will put me in first priority.

Believe you are different from the rest.

Believe that I am important.

Believe that you cared.

Believe that you love me.

Believe in every single word you said to me.

No matter how much you hurt me, I still forgive and forgive, because I love you.

But guess you've been taking every forgiveness for granted.

"Sometimes you forgive people because you still want them in your life."

What is "spend my whole time with you" when you are actually out playing lan and pool with your friends now?

Yea, I said I don't want, because I want to spend time with you ALONE.

Don't you get it?

But you rather choose your friends rather than me, even attitude-ing me.

That already showed something.

Now it's like a million of arrows shooting right into my heart.

When I needed you the most, you're always not there for me when you actually told me you will.

So why, why am I crying for you ..

It's been months ever since I lasted cried for someone for hard ..

Everytime I cry, no one is there for me.

Always crying all alone, no one will be there to comfort me.

You know, I wished, I wish so much that you'll be the there.

I heard voices, I thought it was you, when I look around, it was just my heart that is shouting and crying out.

I don't know what makes you turn this way ..

It makes me so worried, so uncomfortable, so upset ..

I beg you, please, please be back the "you" ..

I am tired, I couldn't hold for long anymore ..

Don't let me fall ..

Waiting and waiting, if you would do anything, if you would show me and prove me, if you would message me ..

It just leads me to disappointment ..

There's so much I wanna type, so much I wanna tell him that I miss him, I miss every single thing we've done, and that I love him a lot ..

But no matter how hard I cried and shout out to him, he couldn't hear me ..

Someone please save me ......

I don't want this moment to ever end, where every thing's nothing without you.

This time, I'm going to drunk myself, DRINK UNTIL I DRUNK!

Bye earthlings.

I've nothing better to do at home so I came to post.

Hmms, last saturday.

Mother went to play mahjong, as usual.

Brother morning went work, afternoon study, night chalet.

Kendrick came my house to help me jailbreak my phone.

He thought need use computer in the end can just use phone jailbreak.

So he download cydia, etc.

My phone now looks nicer, thanks Kendrick. :D

Brother at evening suddenly came back and ask whether is it he help me jailbreak?

I said yea.

He then ask me to ask Kendrick to help him jailbreak his ipad.

So Kendrick did.

The rest I kinda forgot what happen.

Okay, shall skip that.

Sunday, stayed home in the morning and afternoon.

Didn't went out eat.

We had to baibai, for what I don't know.

Morning went to ntuc with parents to buy things.

Buy already went home.

Home and they start to baibai.

I very tired, I went to sleep awhile.

Woke up and sat beside my brother as he was trying to find themes for his ipad.

Parents went out and I went to bath.

Met Kendrick at Level Up.

Played for two hours and went home.

Home bath and sleep.

Monday, went school, ta-da, prelims results.

I failed 4 subjects, pass 2 only.

I failed my English, Math, Combine Humans and POA.

Means I only passed my Chinese and Combine science.

I can bang wall already, with my results like this, I can't even go ITE.

I feel so sad, damn sad.

I wanna study, but I can't study at home.

Rawr!

After school went home and went for tk at night.

Tuesday, school as usual.

After school home as usual.

Then had tk.

Wednesday, had PE.

Played a game, I forgot what it's called, slag?

Although I don't like the game but it's quite interesting.

Well, nothing also.

After school home and had tk afterwards.

At my house here only.

Something make me super angry.

They complain say we work keep talk.

That motherfcuker never think and push all blames to me?

Come on lah, I and we don't need your fcuking nasty comments.

Your daughter is there too, why you don't want say your daughter?

Heart pain sibo. Cb. -.-

After tk, brother came to find me, we went hawker after that.

Ate and went back home bath and sleep.

Thursday, it's late day.

I woke up, I saw mother at the kitchen.

She didn't went to work, so I asked her if I can don't go school.

She ask me why, I say I very tired.

Well, it's true that I'm tired, both physical and mental.

I didn't get a proper sleep for quite many nights.

Problems comes after problems.

So I accompany mother go polyclinic as she wants to take mc.

For me, I think I don't need it.

After that we went to eat, eaten and home.

Home awhile later mother went out, mahjong as usual like I said.

I stayed home watch "On the fringe", finish and I went to sleep.

I couldn't really sleep.

I woke up and continue use comp awhile.

Went to bath and prepare.

Went down to school gate as that stupid Kendrick ask me go there wait for him.

Met him and we walk to mrt.

Jonathan have very sharps eyes, he could see us even when we're quite far, hmms.

We then walk to bus stop to take bus to Kendrick's house.

His auntie and father look friendly. (:

But something happen and make me feel damn weird.

It's really like, someone taking something sharp and keep stab your heart continuously.

Kendrick and Jonathan played ps2 while I sat there watch them play.

Until 8plus we went down to sit.

I almost cry.

But things seems to be fine now, I guess, for that problem.

Kendrick then accompany me home already then he went back home.

Sweet right, yea I know.

Need me ask him then he will do! Tsk.

Home, brother ask me go hawker with him.

So I did.

He ate and we went back home, I bath and went to sleep.

Today morning I drag myself up.

I didn't wanna go school today too, feel a bit sick, some more it's raining.

But I promise Liru I'll go because she don't wanna be alone for POA.

I got up and prepare for school.

Reached and had chemistry.

Totally feel so restless.

Recess called mother to come down bring me home at 10.

After recess is POA, we change back to Mr Lim class.

Have Emily and Brenda they all accompany her already, so I can go home peacefully.

Mother came.

Liru accompany me down to general office.

Wrote down the particulars and went home.

Home, watched "On the fringe" and help my mother do laundry.

Hang clothes and I went to sleep.

I just woke up not long, a bit blurry now.

I feel so damn tired even though I slept for 2hour plus.

I can sleep on, but later at night I cannot sleep jiu jialat.

Hmms, no program for today.

I've so much in mind.

No one I can talk to.

I feel myself very selfish, bad.

I feel like, because of me, he can't do a lot things.

He has to reject things or someone when I don't like it or don't want it.

I feel, guilty at times.

I'm sorry boy, if you could understand me ..

Despite all these, know that my heart for you, is true, real true.

You may seems younger than me a lot.

But I guess age isn't the matter isn't it.

I wish, your heart was true too ..

Iloveyou boy.

I'm back to post again.

That day went tk, super pissed.

I lazy type it out so I shall skip it.

Saturday have tk I think.

At night went to eat mac with brother.

He say he want see the new mac.

Suddenly Hweeling my cousin and her parents came.

We cousins sat down talk talk awhile, then me and brother went home.

Home, rest awhile and went to sleep.

Sunday woke up early, took bus down to temple to baibai my grandfather.

It's been quite a long time ever since I last bai my grandfather.

Bai already went to grandma house.

Baibai again, while waiting, watched tv.

Bai hao le then went to eat, rest awhile and went back home.

Home and bath and prepare.

Went to mrt to meet Jerrold to take back my chinese dictionary.

Took and took mrt to Aljunied to meet Kendrick and Hui Kai.

Walked to level up and played online games.

Until 8plus walked back home.

Something happen and make me very angry.

But I know I've to give in, so I tried to held back my anger.

Went to buy dinner for my brother.

Home, rest, bath and sleep.

Monday, went school.

It's chinese paper 1 and 2.

I is totally blur.

After paper went home.

Home bath prepare already met Kendrick and we went National Library.

Study halfway saw darling and baby.

Sat down together and study.

Study halfway we keep laugh laugh laugh, bth.

Kendrick ke lian only, sit there listen to us joke.

He ownself also laugh okay!

Until 8plus we all went off.

Walked home and went to buy dinner for brother again.

I jitao go sleep liao, tired.

Tuesday went school.

Changed venue to Friendship Hall for this whole week prelims.

We had Geography paper first.

First question, map, I jitao don't want do, I do coast.

Well, I anyhow boom in things only.

After then we had 2 hours of time for recess.

Went to eat and back to hall outside sit and study.

When go in for our Chemistry paper, I jitao don't know how do.

Like no link things lor! Geez.

Done and went back home.

Home and I forgot what happen.

Wednesday had biology paper.

It starts at 1130, morning A-maths.

Slept till 9plus woke up and chiong revise.

Went school at 11 and 1120 went in hall to get ready.

I write wrong answer, 1 mark fly. -.-

Finish and went back home.

Sorry, my memories are getting bad, I couldn't remember what I did after school.

Thurday, had POA paper 1.

Paper also starts at 1130.

Just go school for an hour, just for that paper, and go home.

To be frank, paper 1 was quite easy.

If you've study, it's really a easy paper.

But I don't know how to. ):

But then, heng my last question balance sheet I am able to balance it.

After paper went home.

Quarrel with him. ):

Met Kendrick awhile and came back home.

Home and watch Bleach awhile.

I watch until my eyes close. Lol.

Slept and suddenly brother came home.

He ask me buy dinner again! Rawr!

Went down to buy for him.

Home I slept next to mummy.

9pm woke her up, she ask me 7pm wake her I 9pm then wake her. x:

9pm, time for show!

They say MyBook instead of FaceBook. HAHA.

Cannot blame, they cannot use facebook this word in tv.

Know why? Cause it's copyrighted. (:

Watch finish and went to bed.

I want sleep one leh, mother at there iron clothes and keep talk to me.

Talk talk talk then start to nag at me. Haiyo.

Brother also, jailbreak only.

He keep ask me wait ah, don't sleep, wait me!

He go jailbreak then came to let me see.

Like cool only, he put the theme of 'Silent Hill'.

The lock and unlock sound so scary but cool!

He then try to go make the don't know what app which I want that app.

But he failed.

He say he'll figure out I think.

He also ask me ask Binbin they all, tsk.

I don't know want jailbreak anot leh.

I scare a lot problem, but then I want that app to disiao people. ):

See already and went to sleep.

Today almost couldn't wake up.

I didn't even study for my POA paper 2.

On the way to school, browse through all formats.

POA paper 2 all about partnership.

Then I study cash book, general journal all that for!?

I couldn't balance everything, time is short, 1 hour 30mins is not enough.

Done and took bus back home.

Home and went to slowly post 20plus people's wall. ._.

Post finish and went to watch bleach.

Watch halfway, came to post.

I just browsed through my past post.

Like wtf, damn xmm thinking.

A lot twit, very irritating! HAHA

See the past photos and post, memories.

Things change eventually.

Hmms, shall end it here? I've nothing much more to write.

Oh and, he changed.

He change like a stranger to me.

He isn't the one who dotes on me, pamper me, love me, care me so gently anymore.

He couldn't feel "him", even though I tried to reach out for "him".

He must be tired for holding onto me.

I feel, weird, uncomfortable ..

Damn ..

I shall end here, loves.

I'm back to post again, I just suddenly feel like it.

Last sunday, went to have lunch with my parents at the usual place.

Ate and we went to bugis to walk around awhile and went to help Constance and Damian buy koi.

Of cause, helped my brother buy too.

Miracle sial, I never buy for my own. Haha.

Parents went home first as later they need go set up.

While me? Went down to somerset to meet Constance and Damian first.

Met and we went to buy ticket for 8, and went to shop shop around.

Which 8? Me, Binbin, Yvonne, Constance, Damian, Zhoujie, Yonghwee and his girlf.

We watch 6pm show, and they all arrive, went in on time.

That was the third time I watched.

I still laugh like hell, especially yvonne, keep make me laugh.

After the show they keep say bak gu tay. Tsk.

Yonghwee and his girlf went off first.

The other 6 of us went to HongKong Cafe eat our dinner.

Zhoujie keep shoot me only lor, angry much.

Ate and we walked to dhoby take mrt.

I walked in front, they all behind.

Stupid binbin suddenly walked beside me and cling onto my arm and lie on my shoulder.

Niahma, I kanna chua tio. ._. !

Reached dhoby, zhoujie, constance and yvonne went to take red line.

Binbin and Damian took the purple line.

Only I alone took the circle line. Sad right.

Home and went to bath and I forgot what I did.

Monday, had tk.

Hmms, nothing much happen also.

Midnight brother ordered mac and we watched show.

Watched and we went to sleep, like 5am in the morning? Lol.

Woke up at 10plus and use brother's ipad awhile, and went to bath.

Prepare and went out with parents.

Ohyea, it's national day!

Happy belated birthday Singapore! (L)

We went to the usual place to have bak gu tay.

Well, this time is the whole family.

I think a year only once we were able to sit down as a full family.

So, I appreciate it.

I took my brother's ipad and took a photo of my mother, it's above there.

I keep at there laugh sial. HAHA.

Ate finish and we all split up.

Elder brother went to find his friend, second brother went home.

Me and parents went to paya lebar thought of helping mother to buy dress as she's going dinner that night with my father.

But the This Fashion already closed down.

So parents went back home, I went to Kallang to find Kendrick.

Awhile later Hui Kai came, he say want go lan, but I don't feel like going. ._.

So he called don't know what Alvin, and he went to lan to find him.

Kendrick brought me to a so-called garden.

We sat there and talk.

We saw the areoplanes(?) flying.

Ndp had started.

I thought ndp ends at around 10 leh.

In the end my mother called and say it ends at 8.

And that time was like 7plus already.

I still need help my brothers buy dinner.

So I went home and went to buy dinner for them.

When I reached home it already ended long ago, and they were watch A Million Dollar Drop.

Watched with them and went to bath.

After that I went to sleep I think.

Wednesday no school due to the ndp, school holiday.

Went to prepare and met Kendrick and Mingxuan go lan.

We walked to Level Up, so damn hot.

Nowadays weathers are getting more and more hot.

Remember to drink more water guys. (:

Went in Level Up and I saw that bastard. -.-

Went to the back and saw Adam.

I ask Adam if he got study, he say yes.

I say, it's maths and ss leh.

He was like, HUH? NOT CHINESE LISTENING MEH?

I stare big big at him and smile and say, it's maths and ss lah!

He was like ohshit.

After awhile he went off, I think he go home study.

We stayed there for two hours, they play blackshot, I play audi.

Then we play dota, then audi, then they play back blackshot again. Lol.

We played until 5 and we went off.

I thought that bastard went off already cause I didn't saw him at his sit.

When I turn, niahma, I saw him sitting at the counter. ._.

The moment when I saw him, I jitao diao him. HAHA.

He was like keep looking at me. -.-

I open the door, he face front but I can see his eyes looking at my direction.

Went off without looking at him. Hoho.

We walked back to circuit road.

We sat the usual place.

We waited for Jonathan to come down.

He came and they went to play basketball with don't know who.

I don't know whose basketball is it.

After that I came back home awhile to do my things.

And went down to find them again.

They say mingxuan went home already.

They rest for awhile and they joined people for soccer.

I sat there for an hour plus doing nothing.

Until 8plus they stopped and sat down to rest.

We talk until 10pm and we went home.

And guess what, I didn't study for my pathetic prelim.

Home, bath and sleep.

Morning woke up, prepare and went to school.

First paper, maths paper 1.

I jitao blur, don't know how to do.

Well, some I know some I don't know.

2 hours, it's not enough for me.

Handed up and went for recess.

From 10 - 1130 recess, nice.

We sat at the canteen reading through ss textbook.

That bastard keep stare at me, feel so uneasy. ._.

Until 11plus we went up class, toilet and time for ss paper.

I don't know what am I writing.

I just anyhow boom in and keep repeat things.

For SEQ, don't know which idiot tell me there won't be any healthcare.

Cb, in the healthcare got come out.

I didn't study that, but I chose that cause healthcare leaves me a deep impression.

I jitao super angry. Zz.

End paper, 1pm and we went home.

Home, bath and sleep.

Met Kendrick awhile and he went off.

Went to hawker to help my brother buy dinner again. ._.

Bought, home and continue watch my Bleach.

People at home studying, I at home watch show. (Y) -.-

Watched until around 7plus brother wanted to do his project.

So I used his ipad.

Kendrick called me and we talk until 9 and I went to watch tv.

The Zhiyong very shuai meh, why so many people like him sial. ._.

Watched and off to bed.

Slept and today almost couldn't woke up.

I feel like skipping school, but because of prelim I can't. Geez.

Math paper 2, totally screwed.

A lot questions I don't know, very complicated.

I just hope I could pass it. -prays hard-

We went for recess after that, next paper is chinese listening compre.

1130 start, 12 end, by right is 12.15.

Paper ended and we went back home.

Home and I use comp awhile and went to sleep.

Nap awhile and wake up continue to watch my Bleach.

Brother suddenly came home and say he today half day.

I wanted to go back sleep, he came next to me and disturb me.

Keep use my father's pants make me. Tsk.

I browsing through twitter he keep tickle me.

Then he snatch the bolster from me!

Bad hor him, tsk.

Now he is sleeping, so I came to post awhile.

Later got tk, like sian only.

Shall go bath now, will post again.

Bye earthlings. :D

I'm back to post again after a week.

Hmms, sunday have tk.

Nothing much, just meeting some friends that I haven't met for a few months.

Monday school.

Just a normal school day.

Liru didn't come, only me and Emily.

Feel weird.

After school go home, then met Kendrick and friends I think.

I forgotten what happen.

Tuesday another normal school day.

Liru didn't come again as she's sick.

Wednesday pe.

Play hockey again, quite fun.

I goal keeper, Benjamin keep stand in front of me, make me cannot hit the ball.

He say "You know I very dotes on you de~" -goosebumps-

The ball hit my bone, and the freaking ball is freaking hard(!).

Pain die me.

After school went back home.

Bath everything and went to mrt meet darling.

We went to amk to watch movie, Twisted.

Like funny only lah!

"Wa blingbling, buey tahan."

"出来啦，你不是很厉害咯，出来啦，出来抓我 nehneh, 抓我 nehneh lah."

"Eh, 出来 leh, limbei bo lard liao."

These three sentence had locked in mine and darling's mind.

We cannot stop laughing at these. HAHA.

After the show we went to eat pepper lunch.

It's been so long ever since I last ate that.

Saw Angie. ._. , like we both sian half.

Went to walk around awhile and we took mrt back home.

Met Kendrick and friends awhile.

After that went to meet brother and went hawker center as he wanted to eat.

He ate and we went home.

Home, sleep.

Thursday late day.

They say have mass pe, so we all wear pe.

In the end also don't have, cheat our feeling.

After school had english remedial.

Mr Chin another joker.

After remedial went home bath everything and met Kendrick and Jonathan.

You must be wondering why I keep meet him right.

Bo bian, he force me to do so.

They were doing their math homework.

Awhile later Jonathan went home, Kendrick continue do his homework.

He then called Jonathan to come down.

He tell me Jonathan was talking on phone with the girl he likes.

I say him people at there sweet talking you ask him come down. Tsk.

We sat there until 10 I think, then we went home.

Home, sleep.

Friday morning woke up, prepare and went to bus stop.

I reach there and I realised I didn't bring my ex card out. -.-

Went back home and take it, back to bus stop and took bus to school.

Reach and prepare for prelim.

Had our first paper, English.

The composition I totally don't know what am I writing.

I think I write out of topic. ._.

Recess time saw him, make me sibeh dulan. -.-

Next is paper 2, I totally don't have time to finish!!

Screwed everything.

After paper went home, meet Kendrick.

He then came my house awhile, until around 8 he went to meet Bryan.

I was at home watching my Naruto.

Awhile later brother came home, he use comp while I use his ipad. Hoho.

I use halfway I bth I just dozed off immediately.

I'm super tired, I woke up around 11 today morning.

Watch tv awhile and back to bed, use his ipad, then I almost dozed off.

Brother called me and I woke up, charge his ipad and I couldn't sleep.

Kendrick then ask me go lan.

So I waited my brother go out and I went to bath.

That moment, one bastard called me and ask me meet him.

He kup my phone, cb.

Don't ever fcuking call me and ask me meet you asshole. _l_

Bath everything and met Kendrick at my house downstairs.

We walked to 'Level Up'.

Met Jonathan there and we played for around 3 hours.

Another thing make me sibeh dulan is, that fcuking bastard also went there.

See him spoil my freaking mood.

He took the same phone as me somemore!! Geez.

Didn't cared him.

Saw Adam there, sitting and playing alone, so I went to talk to him awhile.

Until around 6 we went off.

That bastard also went off at the same timing as me. -.-

Asked Kendrick walk faster.

We walk back to the basketball court.

They borrowed soccer ball from someone and they played.

I sat there watching them.

Around 7plus Jonathan went off, sat there with Kendrick until 8plus and we went home.

He forced me to post, so I came to post.

I very lazy to think of things now.

My post is short isn't it, yea I know.

All I want to say is, I like the way he cares for me.

I like the way he make me laugh.

I like the way he guailan people and talk some nonsense.

I like the way he puts his jacket over my shoulder when I felt cold.

I like the way he tickles me.

I like the way he smile.

I like the way he laughs.

I like the way he looks at me.

I like the way he lies on my shoulder.

I like the way he lies on my lap.

I like the way he held my from my back.

I like the way he held my hands.

I like the way he's naive.

I like the way he kissed my forehead.

I like his smell, it makes me miss him more.

I like the way he speaks to me.

I like his voice, I miss his voice.

And of cause, I like the way he whisper and say, iloveyou.

I hate to love someone deep.

When I do so, the other party will start to dim the love for me.

Argh, shall post until here.

My heart and mind are super messy now.

Nights earthlings.