I'mma back to post again.

It's been quite long ever since I last posted isn't it.

Well, was kinda lazy to post, plus there's no one reading it anyway.

A lot of things had happen.

Last sunday, 18 Sept.

I went to ite college west with Emily, Liru and her mother.

It's huge.

It's nice too, especially the kitchen where you bake things.

The hotel was nice too.

We went for their open house and around 4 we went off.

We from Teck Whye LRT took to CCK mrt.

And from CCK mrt we head all the way down to Tampines.

We went to eat first and took shutter bus down to IKEA.

They went there to buy things.

After that we took cab back to Liru's house.

We sit there till 9 and I went home.

Monday, went school blahblahblah.

After school rush back home, bath, tie hair and went down to kallang to meet Liru.

Accompany her to see dentist.

Done and went back her house.

Awhile later went down to dhoby ghaut to find my brother.

We went to watch Johnny English Reborn.

He really joker sial, laughdieme seriously.

Finished and we took mrt home.

Home bath and sleep.

Tuesday I forgot what happen.

Wednesday, I also forgot what happen.

Thursday, I didn't went to school.

Stayed home the whole day, I think.

Friday, after school came home to bath and prepare.

Liru and Emily came my house too.

Until 2pm we went to Liru's house.

Until I don't know what time I went ..

Okay, I forgot.

Or maybe I remember, I don't wanna mention it anyway. (:
Saturday stayed home with brother the whole day.

Well, afternoon he ask me go eat mac with him.

11plus we watched Final Destination 3 at channel 5.

They showed almost everything and they put that show as PG. -.-

Watched finished and went to sleep.

I dozed off at my brother's bed, in the end he went to my bed and sleep. Haha.

Sunday, as usual.

Went to eat with parents, and went down to Liru's house.

Actually wanna go other place buy things, but in the end we didn't.

Stayed there till 8pm and went home.

Home, bath, watch bleach till 10 and went to bed.

I almost couldn't sleep, but I still slept, by force.

Today went school.

Hmms, nothing much happen also.

12.25 we sec 4s had a graduation thing.

Then got prize giving for those had been selected.

That atmosphere, make me can't bear to leave the school.

I miss the teachers, I miss life in secondary school.

Those laughter and fun we had.

But I have to go, aww, sad. ):
Until 2pm they dismiss us for refreshments, I just came back home. o.o

I know it's bad but, I just don't wanna see him by chance, although I wanted to ..

He's really a different guy.

He is someone I wanted to keep by my side so much.

Someone I wanted to hold on tightly.

But people pull him away, and he went, instead of staying with me ..

Man, I can't bear to let him go.

But even if I dont, he already let go.

All I can do now is to let go, and wish him all the best, though I miss him ..

I'll be waiting ..

Why, I know I'm sad over him, but I just don't feel anything about it.

What's wrong with me seriously.

Vera, stay strong!

Being alone isn't a bad thing, even though you need him, you've to hang on!

Though I know I'm not strong, but there's nothing I can do ..

I just need somebody to love.

I need to feel that I'm important to someone, someone like you.

I didn't regret, because I know I've tried my best to fight for him.

It's hurting, knowing he didn't fight for me.

But it's okay, I'm used to it, use to suffering all alone, when I need him to help me carry some of my burdens.

I shall carry everything myself, even if I can't, I have to.

Lonely, I feel like I'm nothing.

Failure every where, being a girlf, being a friend, being a sister, being a daughter, being a student, in studies, in my work.

At first he was my lead, he was the one I'm looking at, the one who give me courage, give me motivations, everything.

But for now, he left.

I'm lost.

It's like, whatever things I do now, it doesn't seem right ..

How I wish he's back by my side, and I mean, only my side, only me.

But I guess it's impossible.

He have his girlf(s).

He wont remember me.

He wont miss me.

He wont really care about me.

He wont even look at me for a second.

He just wont do anymore thing that involves me.

Flashing back.

Looking how innocent and sweet he is.

He message me everyday, take me as his girlf, etc.

And I get to see him almost everyday.

Get to have his hug, his love everyday.

Everyday calls me, joke with me, really very sweet.

All he have in mind was just me and me.

But right now, it's all over.

Why am I crying? I dont know.

I'm crying, yet I don't feel anything.

Why does everyone leave me, when I needed them the most?

I've so much to say, so much to say to him.

Say how much I want him to stay, to love me, but I couldn't express myself ..

Who, who can really sit down right beside me, and listen to me carefully, whole heartily.

I doubt so.

I'll post again if I thought of what else to type.

I realized, whenever I'm sad, I'll blog.

And I always find tumblr that somehow express what I'm feeling, and thinking.

Sigh, what a sad life I'm always having ..

But at least I had a 2 months happy life with him ..

Thanks a million ..

I shall go and take a nap, my eyes are hurting.

Nights earthlings ..

I miss you baby .... A lot .....

Let me continue what happen after I post.

After I post, awhile later my brother called.

He asked me to have lunch with him.

So I went to market to wait for him.

In the end he say he wanna eat mac, so we went.

Saw Gladys, TeckHwee, Jiajing they all.

Like, grr.

Ate and we went back home.

Saw Kianpoh and Shawn too. ._.

Home and watch tv awhile.

Brother started to play ps3, and I watched him play, and read guide for him.

He say I play game use guide he also another one lor!

Went to bath and continue watch him play.

Until 10pm went to eat medicine and sleep.

Today late day.

I woke up on my own at 6am.

I thought I'm late, but I think for a second, it's late day.

So I went back sleep till 7am and I woke up, prepare and went to school.

First period chinese, nothing to do at all.

Stayed in class, until recess.

After recess geography teacher never come, another free two periods.

Talk to Cordelia, Enqi and Adam.

Then it's ss.

Ss also nothing to do, another 2 free periods.

Was like playing Splode all the way.

Next is maths.

Hmms, I did did some questions, after that 210, go home.

Home, went to bath and went down to mrt to meet a blogshop person.

Helped Yufei collect her stitch earpierce and came back home.

Watch Mr Bean and brother suddenly called.

He say tonight cook porridge, ask me cook. Tsk.

So I 6pm then go cook.

Well, I came to post isn't for updating all these stuffs that happened.

I came cause I rather feel disappointed.

Family.

All only thinks that all I do is go out, play whole day.

I'm useless, look down on me just because my results ain't good.

Because I'll be going ITE next year, because I'm a bad girl.

All went to work, at night then will be back home.

No one knows how I feel.

No one cares to sit down with me, and understand how I feel.

Friends.

They can be so true, so fake too.

Always trying to joke with them, try to smile as wide as possible.

Try to join in when I'm being left out.

Try to do everything with them, trying to make myself forget about things.

Make myself to smile, try to cover up my pains.

Love.

What's love?

What's love when you just uses words, instead of actions?

What's love when you don't sacrifice yourself, time, etc?

What's love when you don't put yourself in the party's shoe and spare a thought?

What's love if you lie?

What's love if you betray or back-stab?

What's love if you don't even try? To understand, to maintain a relationship, a friendship.

Why am I the only one, the only one who always tries?

Try to hold on as tight as possible.

Try to give in my best when I know it's impossible.

Try to spare a thought for others even though I'll suffer.

Try to sort out my time, in order to accompany, be there for each of them, no matter how lazy, how I don't feel like going out, how tired, how sad I am.

I'll always put up my smile.

Even though it's a fake smile, but it makes them happier.

Always be there, physically whenever they feel sad.

Whenever they need a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on.

But for me?

I cried alone, suffer alone, do almost everything alone.

I cried out to him, so loudly, he chose not to hear it.

Always puts him the priority yet he doesn't.

Give him what he needs, what they need, yet I can't get what I need.

I wanted to cherish every single day, every single hour, minute and second with him.

But no, in everyone's eye, I'm invisible.

I miss when he almost everyday came down to look for me.

Just because he miss me, he wanted to see me, because I'm important than anything else.

I miss him talking to me non-stop, everytime when I look at my phone, his name will always appear.

I miss him telling everyone I'm his girlf, only his.

I miss him holding so much close to his side, never want to leave for a second.

I miss his that innocent, cute little face.

I miss his laughter, his smile.

I miss his gentleness, the importance, the secure from him.

I just miss every single little bit of him.

But now, everything changed.

I want all those memories to be back where it should be, but deep inside I know, it's not gonna to happen.

All he does now, is the opposite of what I've said.

He just keeps pushes me away, when I keep on trying to reach him, don't let him fall.

Because, I never want to do so.

Maybe it's time to make some choosing, some decision.

I don't know how long I can hold on.

I'm getting more tired when he keeps on pushing me away.

I can't feel that he needs me yet I need him.

But why am I trying so hard?

Just simply cause, I love you, boy.

Can you even wake up and face it?

You're just keeping yourself in a box, never wanna come out to see the world.

I'm there, opening it up and pulling you out, but you rejected me, over and over again.

I've feelings too.

I've my patience, I even broke my patience limit and try to continue pulling you.

You don't see it.

You don't stop and take a look at it, look at what I've done for you.

You don't appreciate my love, my care for you.

I'm really lost.

I don't know who am I.

I don't know what's true, what's not, what's dream, what's reality.

I couldn't feel it.

All different kinds of feelings just mixes together.

Mixed feelings, that's what people says.

Everything just come and goes so suddenly, I can't even catch up with it.

I don't know what to do anymore.

The light seems to be so bright 1-2months ago.

But now, it's getting more dimmer.

What I see was just shadows of it.

Will it be bright like it use to, or become a total dark place where I can't see anything?

It's confusing.

I always lift my hopes up, on everyone, on him especially.

But all I got in return was disappointments, over and over.

It's getting way too tired.

I feel so empty in me.

I just need him to understand me a little.

Is that really too much to ask for?

Why is all these happening to me?

To make people stronger, I know.

But, why me, why am I the one going through all these?

Most painful is, I'm walking it alone.

Miracle will never happen on me.

I guess I'll just post until here, though I still have much more things I wanna say.

Shall cook now.

Bye earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

From the last post.

Saturday I was at home the whole morning and afternoon.

Junwei suddenly message me say he's at Circuit Road.

And he ask me go town with him.

But I rejected. :D

Brother suddenly ask me to cook porridge.

We went down to mini mart to buy can food.

We came up, I wash the rice, add water, got ready everything.

When I tried to start the fire, guess what, no gas.

My brother was like, what the smurf. LOL.

He then went to order mac.

Mac came, we ate, I rest awhile, and went to bath.

Bath and prepare.

And this someone called Russell is damn &($^&*#$^#&()#^$.

Feel like slapping him right in his face.

Anyway, don't care about him.

Prepared and took bus down to tk.

We went there to celebrate mooncake festival.

Okay, to be frank, it's boring!

Totally like nothing to do.

Shouldn't had gone down, should have went out with my brother instead. Tsk.

From 6plus stayed there will 9.

My mother told me my brother at grandma house.

So I met him at Aljunied mrt.

Walked there and he told me he wanted to go eat dinner.

Since I didn't ate anything when I was at tk so I agreed.

We went to market to eat mini steamboat.

Binbin then called me, ask me whether I want go in malaysia with them to eat lok lok anot.

I was like, too late liao, I'm eating with my brother.

Plus if I go in malaysia, I think someone will be angry.

HOR KENDRICK.

Ate and went home.

Home and was talking to Kendrick, watching show on ipad.

Awhile later went to sleep.

Sunday, morning woke up.

Went to bath and prepare.

Went to eat with my parents as usual.

Ate and went to paya lebar to wait for Kendrick.

In the end he came with Mingxuan. o.o

We went to take bus down to parkway kpool.

They played and I sat there watch.

One of them asked me to play, so I tried.

I scored 3 balls continuously.

Like hey, since when I become so good at aiming and playing pool.

But I didn't expect I'll play that well.

I think it's just coincidence, tyco only.

The rest I throw to Kendrick to play, hoho.

Until don't know what time we went to take bus to kallang.

Sat there until a certain time and we went home.

Half way I remembered my brother ask me buy spray.

Alighted at Aljunied and went to buy.

Bought and took bus home.

Home bath and lie on bed.

I flip here and there, I couldn't get into sleep.

Was on the phone with Kendrick until 1am, message until 2plus and he dozed off.

While me?

I was watching tv.

Until 4plus I went to on my brother's comp to watch show.

Had a small talk with Sebas in facebook.

Until 6am I went to bath and prepare to go school.

Went to school, my body is damn tired, but my eye isn't tired at all.

Until 2.10 went home, bath and prepare.

Something clashes and make me damn pissed off.

I went to cook dinner and went down to library to study with Kendrick.

Mingxuan awhile later went off and two of Kendrick's friend came.

I got treated like as though I'm a stranger, invisible.

I feel damn uncomfortable and I walk off to read books.

After studying went to kallang awhile and went home.

Home bath and went to sleep.

Tuesday morning I almost couldn't woke up.

My head hurts and I called my mother.

I told her I'm not going school, and I went to see doctor at 7.30am.

My head was like spinning, I can just doze off anytime.

Waited and waited for the doctor.

I went in, doctor ask what's wrong with me.

I said my head hurts, and I had a little sore throat, it hurts a little.

He check my throat, check my heartbeat.

He jitao give me two days mc when I didn't ask for it.

Didn't expect that, I thought he would just give me a day.

Oh well, went down to take medicine.

I thought he only would give me panadol and cough syrup.

But he also gave me flu medicine. o.o

Do I have flu? I don't know myself too.

Maybe he check until I have? Hmms.

He even gave me antibiotic. ._.

Paid money and it's only 9am.

I went to NTUC to walk around awhile until 9.30.

Why? Because my brother ask me to help him collect his things at sing post.

Can't expect me to go home and go back later on.

9.30am strike and I went to help him collect.

Collected and I walked back home.

Home rest awhile and I went to sleep.

Until 3 I woke up.

And I went to watch show.

I watch the 'Zookeeper'.

Hmms, okay bah, not bad.

530 watch tv until 630 and went to bath.

Bath and was at home using comp and watch tv.

Was on the phone with Kendrick until 11.

I envy Li Teng and Pornsak, they can go Korea. ):

It's a dream place that I always want to go to.

Because my favourite idol, KimJongHyun, SHINee is in Korea.

Well, that's one point.

What's most important is, because Korea is a interesting place.

I like their language.

I know some basic things but what I want to learn is talk in full sentence.

It's not easy I know, but I really hope one day I can learn it.

Hang up phone with Kendrick and I went to sleep.

Morning 6am woke up.

Emily suddenly say she not going school.

So I message Liru, she say she also don't feel like going so she didn't went too.

As for me, I got to choose.

Since they both not going, I shall not go too.

I've excuse, ^^ .

Kendrick then message me, he say he's going assembly so I went back to sleep.

Sleep until 9plus, I got woken by my phone, Liru viber me. ._.

I woke up and went to use comp awhile.

And I saw my brother didn't went work. o.o

He woke up and I ask him, he say he later got exam, so he took leave.

I went back to sleep and woke up at 1.

Brother is out for his exam.

While I stay home, which I came to post as I've nothing to do.

Well, Liru told me she updated her blog ever since January.

I just went to read it not long ago.

Although some I don't really understand because of the way she type it.

But overall I know what is she saying, and how she feel.

She talks about family, friends, love and life.

After reading it, I had this feeling which no words can describe it.

We both have the same horoscope, Capricorn.

Somehow somewhat, she's facing some problem I'm facing too.

We can say like a twin sister, we've too much in common.

We may understand each other a lot but there are some things she cant understand me and I can't understand her.

For now, she can't understand the problems I have in relationship.

Or maybe she do, I'm not sure too.

I get frustrated when I see him message or call.

It gives me a feeling that he's talking to another girl or somewhat.

I feel so damn uneasy, so uncomfortable when he treated me as though I'm a stranger in front of others.

I hate that feeling.

I hate being left out, being neglected, being ignored.

No one in the world likes that too.

So why is almost everyone treating me this way.

When there's a favor to ask me, suddenly treat me good.

But when don't, I'm as though invisible.

Like I don't exist at all.

I'm so tired, not just tired, it's super tired.

Sigh.

I need someone to accompany, as much as possible.

But I don't seem to be important in anyone's eye.

Yea people will care about me, but who is there to REALLY TRULY to care about me?

I doubt anyone would ..

I seems to have things to talk about but I'm totally blank in my mind now.

Okay, shall post until here.

Bye earthlings.

I'mma back to post again.

Well, I already forgotten much of it.

So I shall start with monday.

It's September holiday!

People had a week, I only had four days.

Monday it's N'level chinese paper first.

Woke up early in the morning, prepare and went down to school.

And I think I wrote out of point.

Smurf it.

Next is paper 2.

Hmms, so-so? Hopefully I can pass my chinese.

I only know my chinese oral cannot make it like seriously.

After paper I went home.

Home and went to take a nap.

Woke up, bath and its time to study!

Switched off my phone from 5plus to 10plus.

10plus on my phone just for alarm.

Went to sleep after that.

Tuesday, morning had listening compre.

It's like so cool.

Instead of CD, it's broadcast!

I forgot which FM already.

After paper went home continue study my social studies.

Paper of that starts at 2pm.

My husband came my house.

We studied together.

but halfway I cannot take it anymore, I went to lie down awhile.

Half an hour later I woke up and continue to study.

Until 1pm, took bus back to school.

2pm, paper starts.

First thing I do is to look at the SEQ.

I remembered I did study Conflict Of Northern Ireland.

but I was like, jitao blank. ._.

I just keep repeat everything I know.

Sigh.

Just hope I can get higher than my prelim marks.

After paper went back home again.

And I went to find Kendrick I think.

8 went home and forgot what I did.

Watch tv then sleep I think.

Wednesday, went school.

It's English paper.

My paper one, also cannot make it.

I think I wrote out of point too.

I don't think I can pass my english, smurf it.

Paper 2, some are easy, some are not.

After paper, went home.

First thing I do was off my phone, and went to sleep.

That was like 1pm.

The whole day I was at home watching show.

Until 11pm then I switch on my phone.

I'm so proud of myself.

I can, not touch my phone for such a long period of time! Hoho.

Awhile later then I sleep I think.

Thursday, finally I can wake up late.

Had tk that day.

Was thinking to meet Kendrick awhile, then fly down to tenah merah to meet my mother.

On the way to find him, brother called.

He ask me accompany him go cut his hair.

So I called mother and tell her I'm not going tk.

I went back home.

Didn't meet him, because he said there's no need to meet him already.

Stay home watch show until 530 and went down to Orchard.

I helped him choose hair style.

First time see is weird but see long already, hey, it's not bad actually. (:

Went to buy hair dye and went to eat.

Ate and we went back home.

Home and I helped him dye his hair.

A bottle he only use like 1/4 of it.

The rest throw away leh, like wasted only.

I wanted to dye but I can't, later N'level cannot pass through.

I shall endure until after N'level.

First thing I do is to buy hair dye and dye my hair!

We waited for an hour and I helped him wash away.

Well, if you look closer then you will see a bit of the colour.

A bit fail but he say nevermind wor.

Went to bed and was messaging.

Until halfway I don't know why.

I don't know why all those different kind of pains just came back at once.

Yea, I broke down.

I'm so tired of everything.

Tired of pretending I'm fine.

Tired of staying strong.

Tired of saying everything is fine when I know it's not.

Tired of smiling.

I cried and cried and cried.

After I cried finish, I still manage to tell myself, I'm fine.

Humans are lonely, feel lonely, no matter how many friends you have around you.

I'm always alone.

Get used to everything, everything will be fine.

That's what I always told myself.

breathe in and out, smile and close my eyes, sleep.

but I woke up at 6, I couldn't get back to sleep.

Until 6plus brother woke up and he ask me help him style is hair.

He don't know how style.

So I helped him style using wax.

He say I use too little liao, can't stay long.

I say next time then I help him style again.

Today stayed home whole day watching mr bean.

Funny sial him, joker.

Until 5 brother called and ask me go nex with him.

He wanna buy ear-stud or whatever.

Prepare and went down to find him.

buy already and we went to our house here hawker to eat dinner.

Ate and we came back home.

I've nothing to do so I came to post.

Okay, I shall off to watch tv now.

Although I still have things to type about.

Oh well, nights earthlings!

I don't know what to do at home so, here I am, to post.

Monday, that night met Constance at amk.

Damian cab down to find us cause we thought we're running late.

He cab down, we then know is not meet at amk, is at tkst.

In the end we cab down to Hougang to find Binbin.

Met Binbin and we waited for Ahpeng to come fetch us.

Fetch us all and we went down to wait for Yvonne.

We waited till 12 plus.

We then wait for Ahyong.

While waiting, suddenly someone message me, which I didn't expected that he will.

That's Yulun.

He out of the sudden say "I'm sorry".

I ask him why he keep er, uh, then say nothing.

Didn't wanna ask on so I said okay.

Awhile later he called me.

It's been months ever since he last called me, last I see his name appear in my phone, last I heard his voice.

We talked for around 10 - 15 mins and my mother called, so he kup-ed.

We went into malaysia around 1plus in the midnight.

We went in to eat and back to singapore.

Had so much laughter with them.

Back home at 4am.

I'm tired, but I can't sleep, but I still force myself to.

Morning woke up at around 9plus, that's early.

Went to bath and prepare, and took bus with mother to my mother's side grandmother house.

She's sick, so we went there to pay her a visit.

We stayed there till 12plus and took cab down to outram park.

Yeps, went there to meet up with my father and brothers to eat, as usual, since it's a public holiday.

Ate and went to hougang, Damian came down to fetch me to Binbin house.

We stayed there till 6plus and walk down to hougang plaza(?) to eat Suki.

Constance, YongHwee and Huizhuang then joined us.

As always, they never fail to make me laugh. (:

After eating we went to play kpool.

It's my first time trying.

It was so much fun!

We play till 10 and we all went home.

Only me took mrt, alone.

Home and I went to bath and sleep.

Wednesday, morning woke up, went to school.

Had pe for first period, free play, so we decided to play badminton.

Liru didn't came to school, sad.

After playing and we went back class for english then recess.

After recess bio, stayed awhile and mother came to fetch me home.

But we went to bedok as she ask me to help her do things.

Done and we went to eat.

Ate and took bus down to geylang to do other things.

Done and we took cab home.

Home and I jitao feel damn restless, damn tired, damn upset.

So I went to take a nap.

I had a bad dream.

I dreamt of him.

His leg suddenly gone missing.

I was so shocked, a guy that likes to play soccer so much and had lost his leg.

I got so upset and I hugged him so tightly, crying.

But he got so angry at me, pushed me away.

After then I woke up.

It was a dream, a dream so real.

Yea, in reality, I'm upset, he pushed me, and I wanted to hug him tightly ..

Woke up and went to watch show.

Brother came home and took his comp.

I went to bath and watch tv.

Until 10 I went to bed.

I turn here and there till 1am then I sleep.

Today morning woke up, prepare and went down to bugis to meet Liru and Emily.

We didn't went for Teacher's Day Celebration.

But still, tomorrow is teacher's day, Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers! (:

Went to mac to study.

We study till 1pm and we ate lunch.

Until 3 we went to walk around awhile.

3.30 went down to amk to find Constance.

We plan to play kpool at amk, but too many people.

Wanted to go hougang, but Damian say flooded when he is not even there.

I asked Jessie, she said bugis have.

I jitao wtf, I from bugis fly down now I need fly back bugis again.

So me and Constance went down.

Jessie brought me there.

And tada, we started to play.

It's fun. (:

Trying to laugh as much as I can these few days.

But none of my laughter came from my heart ..

Only he could, but he doesn't want to ..

We played till 7 and we went off.

Accompany her to Bishan and took circle line home.

Now I'm home, feeling so, lonely.

My arm hurts, my neck hurts, my leg hurts, my gastric hurts, my head hurts, my heart hurts the most among all.

I used to have someone that cared for me, that love only me, that takecares of me.

But now, I don't ..

He forsake me, abandon me, betrayed me ..

I've been trying to attitude him, pushing him away, treat him like a stranger.

But in my heart, I wanted to keep him close, I wanted to treat him like how I use to, I want his everything.

What can I do when he doesn't want to ..

You don't know how much I want him back ..

How much I want him to know that I love him ..

How much I want him to just love me ..

How much I miss him ..

How much I don't want him to betray me ..

How much I want him by my side, always ..

How much I need him ..

He don't know anything ..

He don't know how much I've done for him ..

I don't know how long can I hold ..

I'm tired, seriously tired, I just wanna put down everything ..

I just hope he will pull me back to him instead of letting me keep on falling ..

I know deep inside, he ain't coming back ..

So why am I crying for you, so hard? ..

I've so much to tell him, so much to tell him how much I really need him, love him ..

Even so, he won't be listening to me, just because he have 'her' ..

Nothing hurts more than being betrayed like this ..

Soon, soon I'll put down everything, soon ..

I shall end here, I can't take it anymore.

Tomorrow maybe going pool again, hope Constance is free.

Nights earthlings.

Tonight is gonna be a tough night for me again ..