I don't know what to do at home so, here I am, to post.

Monday, that night met Constance at amk.

Damian cab down to find us cause we thought we're running late.

He cab down, we then know is not meet at amk, is at tkst.

In the end we cab down to Hougang to find Binbin.

Met Binbin and we waited for Ahpeng to come fetch us.

Fetch us all and we went down to wait for Yvonne.

We waited till 12 plus.

We then wait for Ahyong.

While waiting, suddenly someone message me, which I didn't expected that he will.

That's Yulun.

He out of the sudden say "I'm sorry".

I ask him why he keep er, uh, then say nothing.

Didn't wanna ask on so I said okay.

Awhile later he called me.

It's been months ever since he last called me, last I see his name appear in my phone, last I heard his voice.

We talked for around 10 - 15 mins and my mother called, so he kup-ed.

We went into malaysia around 1plus in the midnight.

We went in to eat and back to singapore.

Had so much laughter with them.

Back home at 4am.

I'm tired, but I can't sleep, but I still force myself to.

Morning woke up at around 9plus, that's early.

Went to bath and prepare, and took bus with mother to my mother's side grandmother house.

She's sick, so we went there to pay her a visit.

We stayed there till 12plus and took cab down to outram park.

Yeps, went there to meet up with my father and brothers to eat, as usual, since it's a public holiday.

Ate and went to hougang, Damian came down to fetch me to Binbin house.

We stayed there till 6plus and walk down to hougang plaza(?) to eat Suki.

Constance, YongHwee and Huizhuang then joined us.

As always, they never fail to make me laugh. (:

After eating we went to play kpool.

It's my first time trying.

It was so much fun!

We play till 10 and we all went home.

Only me took mrt, alone.

Home and I went to bath and sleep.

Wednesday, morning woke up, went to school.

Had pe for first period, free play, so we decided to play badminton.

Liru didn't came to school, sad.

After playing and we went back class for english then recess.

After recess bio, stayed awhile and mother came to fetch me home.

But we went to bedok as she ask me to help her do things.

Done and we went to eat.

Ate and took bus down to geylang to do other things.

Done and we took cab home.

Home and I jitao feel damn restless, damn tired, damn upset.

So I went to take a nap.

I had a bad dream.

I dreamt of him.

His leg suddenly gone missing.

I was so shocked, a guy that likes to play soccer so much and had lost his leg.

I got so upset and I hugged him so tightly, crying.

But he got so angry at me, pushed me away.

After then I woke up.

It was a dream, a dream so real.

Yea, in reality, I'm upset, he pushed me, and I wanted to hug him tightly ..

Woke up and went to watch show.

Brother came home and took his comp.

I went to bath and watch tv.

Until 10 I went to bed.

I turn here and there till 1am then I sleep.

Today morning woke up, prepare and went down to bugis to meet Liru and Emily.

We didn't went for Teacher's Day Celebration.

But still, tomorrow is teacher's day, Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers! (:

Went to mac to study.

We study till 1pm and we ate lunch.

Until 3 we went to walk around awhile.

3.30 went down to amk to find Constance.

We plan to play kpool at amk, but too many people.

Wanted to go hougang, but Damian say flooded when he is not even there.

I asked Jessie, she said bugis have.

I jitao wtf, I from bugis fly down now I need fly back bugis again.

So me and Constance went down.

Jessie brought me there.

And tada, we started to play.

It's fun. (:

Trying to laugh as much as I can these few days.

But none of my laughter came from my heart ..

Only he could, but he doesn't want to ..

We played till 7 and we went off.

Accompany her to Bishan and took circle line home.

Now I'm home, feeling so, lonely.

My arm hurts, my neck hurts, my leg hurts, my gastric hurts, my head hurts, my heart hurts the most among all.

I used to have someone that cared for me, that love only me, that takecares of me.

But now, I don't ..

He forsake me, abandon me, betrayed me ..

I've been trying to attitude him, pushing him away, treat him like a stranger.

But in my heart, I wanted to keep him close, I wanted to treat him like how I use to, I want his everything.

What can I do when he doesn't want to ..

You don't know how much I want him back ..

How much I want him to know that I love him ..

How much I want him to just love me ..

How much I miss him ..

How much I don't want him to betray me ..

How much I want him by my side, always ..

How much I need him ..

He don't know anything ..

He don't know how much I've done for him ..

I don't know how long can I hold ..

I'm tired, seriously tired, I just wanna put down everything ..

I just hope he will pull me back to him instead of letting me keep on falling ..

I know deep inside, he ain't coming back ..

So why am I crying for you, so hard? ..

I've so much to tell him, so much to tell him how much I really need him, love him ..

Even so, he won't be listening to me, just because he have 'her' ..

Nothing hurts more than being betrayed like this ..

Soon, soon I'll put down everything, soon ..

I shall end here, I can't take it anymore.

Tomorrow maybe going pool again, hope Constance is free.

Nights earthlings.

Tonight is gonna be a tough night for me again ..