Last saturday morning woke up, prepare and went to work.

Time pass so slow, especially without boyf.

There's not much people too, so had been kinda slack from 3plus to 5 and off work.

Went home, buy dinner for brother and myself.

Whole day never eat, gastric pain. ._.

Ate already, brother siao, order one set of mac.

We shared it, while we were studying.

Around 7plus(?), boyf came back from malaysia.

Happy~

Like I said, I'll sort things out with him, I did, everything seems fine.

And he very last minute.

He said he wanted his anniversary present, like tomorrow, which is sunday.

So when he went to sleep, I was awake the whole night, preparing.

After that I went to sleep awhile, 2hours(?).

Woke up, continue do do do.

Heng can finish in time.

So I went to bath, prepare and went out with parents.

As usual, went to eat.

Ate already, went to take mrt down to find boyf.

Met, and went up his house.

His parents at home, feel so awkward and extra. x.x

Put the box at boyf's room, and letter I hide somewhere. :3

He always anyhow talk, make me so worried and scared until I cried. Tsk.

At his house till 10 and his father drove me home.

Thanks ^^.

Home bath and I forgot what I did.

Monday early morning woke up, bath and prepare and went to boyf's house, again.

He asked me to do so. ):

Reached, stayed at living room watch tv, he's sleeping, his sister playing computer.

Until 11plus he woke up and came out and he scolded me.

He say I reach never call him. Sad.

Don't wish to disturb his beauty sleep mah~

He went to bath, I use computer awhile.

He then on a show, we watched it together.

Aiya, the middle part I don't wanna say, makes me cry. ):

In the end we okay already, they going eat sushi, with their parents.

I don't want to go, everytime go is his parents pay pay pay, I feel guilty. x.x

both boyf and Yufei also say cannot, so I went.

I very full already boyf still ask me eat, until I wanna vomit.

After that went back his house awhile.

Until 9.30 wanted to go home, cause it's super late already.

I step out to living room, I want to say bye uncle, and he said.
"Wait awhile, I watch finish this show I drive you home."

I said dont want, later very ma-fan.

He said, "No no no, bu hui, deng yi xia hor."

So I went back boyf's room sit and wait lor.

Awhile later he went down.

I wait for boyf, he went to bath.

before I go I thank auntie and said bye to her.

So his father drove me home, again.

Home, went to bath and okay, I forgot what I did again.

Yesterday morning woke up, use computer awhile.

Then went to prepare.

Waited for darling to prepare too.

blahblahblah, done and we met at macpherson mrt.

We went to amk to eat sushi~ :D

Had a talk with her.

We ate 19 plates only leh, both of us add together 19 plate only.

I see other people, walan, plates like mountain, a lot sial.

I tell darling they purposely 2-3 days never eat then jitao come here eat is it.

Darling say ride horse have 1 week. LOL.

After ate finish we went to get KOI.

Go so far never buy KOI is siao one okay.

So I bought for me and my brother.

After we bought it, we went to amk hub walk walk awhile.

Went to buy some things.

And we took mrt back home.

Quarrel with boyf, almost broke off.

I cried and cried the whole night, I didn't manage to sleep, even when I tried to.

Reflected, thinking the whole night too.

I know I brought all these to myself.

All blames should be on me, because I'm in the most wrong and fault.

When yesterday he told me, "My friend said he rather me be friends with you than be together with you."

This sentence gave me a big impression.

This sentence had stuck in my mind the whole night.

Just by thinking of that, it really scares the hell out of me.

I'm not match with other girls, I understand.

but what I can match with them is, my heart and love for you.

It'll never be less than them, not a single bit.

I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

I'm sorry I don't know how to handle it well.

I'm sorry to show you a wrong way of doing things.

but I can tell you that, my love for you is true, I swear.

I'll never cheat on you, your love, your money.

If I wanted to, I'll be doing it 2 months ago, there's no need to wait till now.

I already need you, your love like no tomorrow ...

When problems come, all words in the past doesn't count, that's human nature.

but I'm gonna do it in a different way.

boyf, remember last saturday, you called me, and you asked me.

"No matter what happen, can you promise me that you'll never let me go?"

And of cause, I said.

"No matter how much hurt, how much I suffer, how miserable, how bad it is, I'll never let you go, I promise you."

Remember that?

Yea, I'm gonna keep that promise, I'll NEVER let you go.

I can understand how he is feeling right now, even though he said I don't.

That anger, that tiredness, that sadness, I understand it all.

Yea, I'm being selfish, being greedy.

but there's no wrong of afraid of losing you, no wrong that I needed all your love isn't it?

Or is it a crime?

Yea, I agree I see things the wrong way.

Push me, make me to see the correct way would you?

I need you by my side, I need your love.

I'm sorry, everyone deserves a second chance isn't it?

Please forgive me, forgive for what I've done wrong.

I just wish you will come back ...

back like how we used to ...

There's a lot I wanted to say, yet I don't know how to express ...

I'm sorry boyf ....