Hi earthlings.
I'm back, and it's like almost a week long after I've post.
Hmms, shall continue.
Sunday same thing, went to eat with parents.
Then we went ION to walk around awhile.
Home and met boyf at library to do my homework.
And I can't complete it in time.
He send me home and I went to sleep I think.
Monday go school, nothing much happen also.
POA teacher ask me and husband to stay back cause we didn't do our homework.
In class we rush through it and put it in his pigeon hole instead of staying back.
Me and husband then walk home.
Home and look at movie slots.
Darling wanted to watch the "Ghost must be crazy."
So I accompany her go watch lor.
And I've watched it for like, three times?
I just remembered that I haven't pay her the money, shall return her on monday.
boyf was at dhoby also as he went to find his gan mother.
After watching me and darling went to shop around while waiting boyf to go eat.
Darling say she want see how he look as she forgotten.
Met him and we took mrt back home.
Darling alighted first.
Sorry darling can't send you home. ):
Me and boyf don't know what to do so we one round around macpherson area.
We were talking and suddenly I just feel super scare and afraid of something unusual.
Yea, studies.
I very scare what if I failed my N's, O's.
Things will be so much different isn't it.
I just want to study well now, at least a N level.
but I don't know how to cope with it, don't know where to start.
Cause we left like half a year, which is quite short already.
Somehow if I go ITE, what will others think?
boyf is at poly, which I'm envy of him, I don't want drag him with me.
Like, if he could find a poly or a girl with better future, isn't it great?
but, at the same time, I don't want to lose him.
Argh. /:
Me and boyf sat down.
I tear few drops, boyf keep ask me what happen.
I wanted to cry, yet I kept hold back, hold and hold, but boyf keep ask and ask.
Until I totally bth and I broke into tears.
Thanks boyf for comforting me, advicing and your warm hugs.
I wanted to cry out everything but I need to go home.
Feeling so, scare and sad.
Home bath and sleep.
Tuesday go school was totally moodless.
After school I went back home I think.
And went to library to study and do homework.
boyf came to accompany me.
Done and he send me home.
Home sleep, wednesday go school, blahblahblah.
I guess things are going to replay.
Sigh, oh well.
After school went back home, met boyf I think.
Then went to bath and prepare.
Accompany him go back his house as his mother ask him to hang clothes.
Sun bian at his house study.
I am totally lost in my math, and boyf teach me and revise with me.
Thanks boyf! :D
He then send me back home.
Home and sleep as usual.
Thursday, late day, (Y).
Hmms, nothing much happen also.
After school got bio remedial.
I like bio remedial, like, so much fun and laughter.
At the same time we also got do work lah, not so slack.
After that went back home and prepare.
Mother came home and cook ham~ (Y)(Y)(Y)!
Ate and went down to library to meet boyf.
Study together become he teach me math, again. LOL.
And he very blur sial, I say amount is 118%, he tell me 318%.
In the end he see see look look think think, it's actually 118%.
I still ben ben go believe him that it's 318% leh. Wth.
Like damn funny only.
Finish and he send me home.
Home sleep, it's friday~ which is today.
Went school, nothing much also.
After school went back home rest awhile.
Until 2plus went down to meet darling and baby to go CCA.
My leg is pain sial, but I didn't care, just play badminton only.
We play until 4.50 like this then go home.
Home, bath blahblahblah and head down to dhoby to meet brother.
He ask me pei him go there don't know change what movie ticket.
Change already and he brought me to Aston's to eat.
Salmon (L)!
Eat finish and we went to a shop, forgot what shop is that.
He bought one trousers and we went back home.
He wanted to meet his friend but his friend didn't answer.
Home and I went down to meet boyf awhile.
Sit sit, talk awhile then there's few drops of rain and we went into shelter in case it rains heavily.
While sitting, suddenly something happen.
Which, really scares me.
I know I very scary cat lah, but, it really scares me.
And boyf got angry.
Sorry boyf, make you so angry and worry of me.
Relax okay! Loves.
Home and came to post.
Think father is gonna scold me later, sigh.
Stress stress stress, studies, and he keep like adding more stress to me.
Teachers also adding stress to me, feel like banging the wall man. x.x
I don't know what happen to me sial seriously.
First time, first time I'm so concern about my studies.
I don't know what to do, no one leading, walking by my ownself.
I'm falling, darkness, loneliness, I've been through once, so afraid that it ...
And, while typing, father came back and actually didn't scold me, miracle(?).
I don't give a damn anyway, totally out of mood.
Pms? Stress? Or both?
Argh, writing rubbish on my precious blog.
Who truely understands me, myself? I doubt so.

And also, I don't know why I love my boyf a lot.

He's too good for me seriously, /: .

Wish there's something I can do for him as he did too much for me.

Sigh.
Shall end here.
Loves all, and boyf.