Hi people.
I'm so bored at home alone, feeling so down.
but it seems like I got no one to turn and approach to now.
Yesterday night was talking to darling.
Cause she saw my blog.
Yea, thanks darling for comforting me.
Sometimes is better to pretend that you're fine than to admit that you are actually not.
Didn't manage to sleep yesterday night, again.
It's been two days that I didn't sleep and eat.
I just couldn't get into sleep.
I couldn't eat anything, or should I say, I didn't even have a space to think of it, and I actually forgotten.
Today morning I hurt myself.
I was straightening hair and I giap until my finger.
Yea, a little red mark is there.
I don't care anyways.
Use com awhile, and tried to catch some sleep.
I closed my eyes, but my mind is all about boyf.
When I actually was able to sleep, I jump up.
I don't know why, I just felt scare, scare of something.
It's like, if I sleep, everything will vanish.
I know I'm sensitive and thinking too much, but that's how I feel, I can't do anything.
Was lying on bed, staring at the ceiling, looking at the 4 sided walls.
I've no one to talk to.
I'm like a crazy person, talking to a soft toy.
Telling it, how much I miss him, how much I actually love him.
Does anyone out there knows about it? I doubt so.
brother suddenly talk to me in msn.
He told me he's sad.
Comfort him, and I wanted to tell him, I wanted to tell him how sad I am right now.
I don't know how to start, so I didn't.
Always crying alone here.
How I wish I've a shoulder to just cry everything out.
I wish it is you boy, I wish it is you beside me now.
I wish you will hug me and say, "baby, don't cry, I'm here, I'm always here to love you, protect you."
but I guess that's not gonna to happen now.
Just now went to boil water.
I didn't take it properly, and water just splash on my foot.

Although my finger and foot feels pain, but it isn't as much pain as my heart is now.

It's a hundred times pain-er.
Everything I do just don't seem right.
All I think about was you boy, only you.
I doubt your mind has me now.

Kept on looking at my phone.

I hope when it rings it's you.

You're the reason for me to every smile of the day.

Flashing through our sms, laughing yet crying to myself.

Missing the way you hugged me tight.

Missing your tender kiss.

I miss you, I miss everything about you.

I want to cry everything out, but I just couldn't stop that tears from falling.

Staring out the window, looking at the place where we always sit.
Remembering those laughter and sadness I've with you.

Remembering every moment with you.

Those picture just kept appearing in my mind.
He said he wanted time alone.

I only can wait, I'll just have to wait, wait, wait wait.....

Although it's so hurting, but I'm willing to do so.

I hope things will go better, back to the times we had.

So much in my heart and mind right now, couldn't express it...

I just hope he'll be back, I know he will, I know...

I just need him to try again, just this last time....

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alright, shall post until here.

bye people.....

Hi again.

Just now went out to have dinner with brother.

Had pizza. ^^

but I ate a little and I'm damn full.

I feel like vomitting! Die. ._.

After that met darling.

She said she wanted to come down find me as she's worried? Hahas.

We went down to bugis to have a walk around.

It's been so long ever since I last go out with darling.

Thanks darling for crapping and bringing those laughter.

Sorry that I couldn't really smile, sorry to make you worry about me.

but I've listened to you, I ate. (:

Although not much but at least I did eat right!? Hee ^^.

Thanks darling for seeing my ugly face when I cry! And there to sayang me.

I love you. (L)

I miss him so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love mine boyf. /:

I feel like dying soon. Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Okay, shall end here.

Nights.