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Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Just came back not long after I met boyf. Things are happening &going wrong this few days. I don't know how to start. boyf had changed to another person. I'm no longer important to him. He's friends are much more important now. He no longer can read my mind. He no longer know what I really want from him. All I want is just his love &accompany. Yet just now, he left me, he left me to go gym training with his friend when I needed him the most by my side. It's the second time he did that. Heart broken, seriously hurt, disappointed. At home crying all alone, so lonely, feeling so lonely, so dark. I don't want him to leave, I don't want him to go, I want him to be by my side. Hint &hint &hint, yet in the end he still went off. broke into tears right after I reached home. We're so drift apart now. He's getting further &further, which I tried to reach, yet I can't touch. I used to be so important to him, but why.. I've love him so much.. It feels like, it's our last meeting today, we won't be able to see each other again. Why must this happen to me. My head is so pain now, yet my heart pains a thousands time more. I don't want to let go, I want to hold on, but I couldn't touch his heart anymore. After I said so much, cry so much, wish so much, nothing changes. I'm a nobody to him, not even a single bit. Promise, what is promise, it's nothing. before holidays, he promised he will give me all his time after his N just to accompany me. Yet? I doubt he remember. I'm feeling that he's trying to his old self just to make me happy. It felt so fake, what he's doing is just being force &pretending. I don't know what to do.. He's gonna slowly forget the fun, laughter, sadness, crazyness, shyness, sweetness, cuteness, memories, love, &last of all, me. He's slowly gonna leave all memories behind, including me. It's gonna vanish soon, &I don't want to.. I really wanna hug tight him now, but he's gone, no longer by my side.. I've so much to say, but who's willing to listen to me? Not even him. What's more to do now.. - bye. |
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