Hello peepos. ^^
Shall continue, waited for some people to call me as he say he'll call me back later on.
So I waited &waited until2plus/3.
Yes, someone called, but it's not him, instead it's Geoffrey.
Lied to him that I wanna sleep but I didn't.
My brother is back from his Taiwan trip, &he bought this Elmo for me. (L)(Y)
He bought one shirt &S.H.E cd for my elder brother, like, I also want shirt lah. ):
Well, he manage to get something for me, I'm happy already.
Accompany him awhile until I really bth liao, got to wake up early the next morning.
I put alarm 8.15, both my brother put their alarm at 7plus.
Both rang &I'm sleeping in th middle some more, ji ke lian yi xia.
I'm feeling so tired that I don't feel like going for the CIP.
But I forced to pull myself up as the CIP is a must go thing, no choice~
Went to different elderly houses at Pipit Road which is near my house only.
Me, Leah, Jonell &MrsChoong went together, abit boring but it's good &I'm pleased that they're living happily.
12plus ended, walked back home.
My brother asked me to accompany him go eat, but in the end I never.
Cause darling asked me first, she asked me to pei her go eat.
Went to prepare &down to her house downstairs to wait for her. So sweet of me right. :B
We took mrt down to PayaLebar to have LJS.
Talked quite a lot of things.
Done eating &we headed down to Tampines as I wanted to buy something.
On the way in the train, we keep laugh laugh laugh until we reached Tm, non-stop leh. Pro us.
Walked &manage to get my things with just $12.
Then accompanied darling to CentreSquare to buy clips.
Buy liao then took mrt back home.
Went to bath, prepare awhile &head down to tk myself.
Niahma, I walk wrong side.
In the end need mother to walk to mrt to fetch me. Xiasuey.
See some past photos with Yiwen, can't imagine past &now look so different.
Today's run is fun, non-stop. :3
But I hurt my finger.... ):
Ended &I feel very giddy &tired, may faint anytime.
Camwhore few pictures &off to van to go home.
In van, had a h2h talk with Hweeling, my dear cousin.
I also had a h2h talk with my beloved darling.
Thanks for those listening ear, I feel abit better saying out how I feel.
Thanks darling for all those craps &make me laugh, if not I'll be crying at home, I guess. (: ....
Now I'm home, alone.
Been thinking a lot a lot a lot.
Well, don't take me for granted.
How you treat me, I'll treat you the same.
You love me? You care about me? You worry about me? I'm important to you? You'll never leave? Yea right, all the answer is no, you know, N.O.
Please spare a thought for me.
You know how I feel anot.
You know those being thrown to one side &sitting down, eyes 24/7 looking at the phone, waiting for your text/call like an idiot?
Yea, I am one. I'm such a fat idiotic person.
Agree? Yes, strongly agree.
I'm very emotional that's what you'll be thinking.
If it wasn't you, you think I'll be so emotional?
Ya, you'll also say spare a thought for you.
If you are unable to touch your phone, at least inform me isn't it?
You didn't inform me, I'll be there worrying what happen to you or what so ever.
Yes, that's what I call I'm idiotic.
I'm not angry cause you didn't manage to text me for a period of time, I'm angry cause you didn't even tell me in the first place.
Like hi, I'm not invisible.
Or I am, even a computer is much more important than me. Pathetic hor. ^^
Darling today asked me, "That time you write on your blog say you can't smile from you heart. Then now leh?"
Been thinking about that question.
Yea, I may be laughing from my heart, but that won't heal my wound.
In short, I don't think I'm laughing from my heart.
But then, thanks darling for that laughter which makes me puts him &problems aside for a few minutes. I appreciate it. (L)
Got boyf like no boyf, no difference.
Like what darling told me today.
Yes, same goes for me.
I'm not gonna give in &give in &give in, while he only takes in &takes in &takes in.
Feel miserable &get hurt is us, not him.
Why is it us kept on giving in, why can't it play fair &square?
Ohwell, life is unfair isn't it.
If you &your boyf/girlf stop texting/calling for quite a period of time, around 6hours, &he/she called &he/she say's he/she don't disturb you, later he/she will call back.
How would you feel?
Normal people, I mean most of the girls, will want to have a longer talk with him/her isn't it.
&he/she just say "then I don't disturb you".
If you don't wanna talk to me then tell me, don't use "I don't disturb you" to excuse yourself.
Ya, you "WILL" call back? My ass lah, call lan lah call.
One shadow also don't have. -.-
I'm sorry if this affect you or offended you, do whatever you want alright.
I'm tired already, seriously tired...
It takes two hands to clap, I can't probably be the one holding on all the weight.
I know he's stress about his 'N'.
Like I said, I'm not invisible. I'm not just appearing a girlf of his, I'm someone who is here to share all your burdens with, happiness or sadness, I'll like to share them all.
Maybe to him I may not be his girlf but my ear &shoulder is always there for him.
But hey, I'm a human, I've feelings, I can feel the tiredness &I need to rest too.
I've so much so much so much things to say, but you won't be listening anyways, why bother.
Really cannot take it anymore...
Hiding myself in the dark/sleep &never ever wake up is what I wish I can have now...
Prays I won't do silly stuffs...


Edited.

I just my prediction is right.

Just saw something which was on fb &it's about an hour plus ago.

I'm thinking &being sad alone all along &all he do is just enjoying himself.

I can hold back my tears, but when I saw that, it burst out.

There's no need to talk anymore.

This is what you wanted isn't it, okay, don't regret for what you've done.

Don't say I never warn you.

Well, shall not cry anymore.

Nights everyone. ^^ .......

, Beacuse of you.