Sunday, April 25, 2010
 ROMANTIC Yeah, my girl I'm an idiot Your unforgettable love, The final tears Are ripping away at my whole heart It's ripping away, (I'm Sorry) I'm so sorry I thoughtlessly walk Wherever my heart takes me It seems I am looking for Those that look similar to you I'm still standing at the same place It almost seems like you just tapped my sagging shoulders And hid from my sight Why are you not there? can I not see you? Are my eyes looking too far? I trusted that I could love again Still you stay, branded in my heart unmoving. What do I do? It can't not be you. I am so miserable That I realized this now The pictures Make it look like I am still your love The heat of your body and your face I can still feel it Deep inside my heart Still I have romantic in my heart I want to go back. So many days I had Everything of you. But why is it (baby why) That now (tell me why) That I can't find you? I'm so frightened that In the places where our memories are deeply embedded That I may (I know) see you there with the perfect man. I trusted that I would meet a love like you again The pain of you branded in my heart is death What do I do? It can't not be you I am so miserable That I realized this now The pictures Make it look like I am still your love The heat of your body and your face I can still feel it Deep inside my heart Still I have romantic in my heart I want to go back. I guess I'm exhausted. Left alone I wander, Looking for the love left in the empty space where you were. I'm begging you to look at me. Look at the one so similar to you This ordeal is too much for me It so much worse than simply waiting I became so similar to you that I copied even your habits There is more of you inside me than myself I wanna be, wanna be your man Let's go back to the way things were I want be reborn as a man that loves you I won't hurt you ever again Can I go? I wanna be... I won't let you, Be your man It can't not be you I am so miserable That I realized this now. The pictures Make it look like I am still your love. The heat of your body and your face I can still feel it Deep inside my heart. Still I have romantic in my heart I want to go back. It can't not be you I am so miserable That I realized this now. (Your unforgettable love, The final tears Are ripping away at my chest Leaving only scars that will never heal Leaving me as my miserable self I'm so distressed, what do I do?) The heat of your body and your face I can still feel it Deep inside my heart. Still I have romantic in my heart I want to go back. What do I do now? Hi. (: Yesterday went mrt to meet my mother &go back my grandma house. Don't know why my eye hurts. 11plus went home with parents. Hsienyung kor watch show, SNSD Yoona take de. I watch 'Planet 51' &the show while I'm downloading 'UP'. Nehneh lah, I accidently close it, then need re-download. ._. So ya, waited &waited. Finally done, I watched halfway Hsienyung kor want sleep already. So I closed &return him his Iphone. &ya, was messaging with him. Don't know why I cut myself, LOL, stupid. -.- Who cares anyways. Didn't cared &I just went to sleep. 4plus sleep, 6plus woke up, wow. Woke up to watch show until now, feeling a bit tired. Don't know why I went to hear this song, 'ROMANTIC', &I feel, down? Looking over &over &over again at what I've wrote &what he sent. What to do.. Why others get to have a second chance with him, yet only I can't? Life is so unfair. You'll cherish something, when you realised you've loss it. Yea, I regretted. Imissyou boy.. |: , going nap awhile, later going grandma house. &ya, same thing, will be staying there till friday night then come back. Ohmy, I realised I very long never audi already. Maybe it's better this way, I won't see them tmm or something. There're some things that is better for us not knowing what happen. Cause it only makes you more miserable. I cannot tahan already, I'll end here. Edited. Things are going in the wrong way. Since he thinks that I don't believe what he says then, sigh.. I'm just feeling scare. Scare that he might just change his mind at the next second. No one can predict what will happen at the very next second isn't it. You know that feeling? You understand that feeling? You know how deep it is? No. Ya, you will say I kept on thinking about myself, not sparing a thought for you. &ask me to put myself into your shoe &think again. Why not you do the same? I may look strong on the outside, but inside, who understands? Bet none. I know you've your own reasons why you can't get back to me. But hey, can you guarantee that you WILL come back if things are settle? What's the point on holding on while you two kept on drifting? I don't want keep quarrel with you, all I want is go back like how we used to be. Remembering what you sent me on our first month. 'Baby, although I can't tell you how much iloveyou, but let time prove it. I'll love you eternity &cherish every moment with you. Happy one month, <3.' &a BIG, L.O.V.E. Isn't it sweet? Yea, indeed. Thinking about it makes me wanna cry &smile, but the smile is faked. Maybe I'm wrong, ya, everything lies on me. I know you have a lot of problems. That's why I want to be your special &important person, whom you can share your burdens with. Not just friends, not best friend, but someone beyond best friend. I can't get you out of my mind. I can't get you out of my heart. I can't get out of the past. I can't get your words out from my mind &heart. I can't get you out of anywhere. Someone told me, "If you're willing to let go &move on, you can. It's all your decision whether to give up, or continue to wait &suffer. No one can control you." Ya, I agreed. No matter how hard I try to shoo him off, he is always still in my heart, un-moving. He say he's not giving me false hopes whatever shit. Okay, I believed him. Prove to me, prove to me that what you say are true. Prove to me that you're different from other guys. Prove to me that you still cares for me. Prove to me that you say "I don't love you anymore." is not true. Prove to me that I'm still in your heart, unchanged. Prove to me that you'll come back &never leave again. Prove to me that what others say are not true. Prove to me, you'll be mine.. Prove everything to me. Prove me wrong. I know you can, all you need is time is it? Okay, I give you. How long do you need? 1day? 1week? 1month? 1year? 10years? 100years? I don't know how long can I wait, but I'll try my best. But let me inform you, my patience have limit. You won't disappoint me, would you? I'm exhuasted on crying, I want to stop. But only you, you can help me to stop those tears. Only you can let me sleep well at night. Only you, can make me take off the fake smile. Only you can let me feel that I'm loved. I've loved you, always boy, always.. I really hope &wish, you'll say, "Baby, iloveyou. I'll never leave you." again to me. Everyone will thinks that I'm dreaming, but boy, I believed, I believe one day, you'll say that to me again. Always waiting.. Fyi, I'm writing all this cause I feel like writing it on my blog. If you don't like it, then please don't come at the very first place. This is my blog, I own it, I write whatever I feel like. You've no rights to judge it or me. Don't like me please kindly fcuk off from my blog, tyvm. , Why does things turn out this way? |
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